A break in the clouds

Hey fellow bloggers and faithful readers. I got a spot of good news today, my VTNE marks came in and I passed! Woo hoo!! It took long enough for them to come in, but they finally came in! You don't get an actual mark though, which was slightly dissapointing beacause it doesn't really give me much of an idea areas that may need improvment, but I passed, and thats the important part. This week has been pretty rough. Nana's condo has been sold, which kinda put us on a deadline, but we have most of it cleared out, and there are just a few items left. Even though that makes me sad, I'm also slightly happy about it, because it needs to be done, and if we waited for to long, we might have a problem selling it. So at this point in time it feels like a good thing, but with the way I have been feeling, that could change in the next half hour or so. I hate feeling like this, not feeling happy, but not necessairly feeling sad, just numb, and every once in a while I burst into tears, I guess thats to be expected, but I really hate this feeling. It's the numbness that I hate, I would hate to be sad, however at least I would have a feeling. Right now I'm feelingless, does that make sense? When I smile it isn't because I'm happy, it's because I think that I should be happy. Do you think it's possible that a person can build up a wall around their heart so hard that they become numb? And if so how does that person go about breaking down that wall? Maybe thats not even my problem, maybe it's just fatigue. Anyways, I'm outta here, so I'll catch y'all later. Have a good one!

A Pet's Plea

Treat me kindly my beloved friend, for no heart in all the world is more greatful for kindness than the loving heart of me.
Do not break my spirit with a stick, for though I might lick your hand between blows, your patience and understanding will more quickly teach me the things you would have me learn.
Speak to me often for your voice is the world's sweetest music, as you must know by the fierce wagging of my tail when the sound of your footstep falls upon my waiting ears.
Please take me inside when it is cold and wet, for I am a domesticated animal, no longer accustomed to bitter elements. I ask no greater glory than the privilege of sitting at your feet beside the hearth.
Keep my pan filled with fresh water, for I cannot tell you when I suffer thirst.
Feed me clean food that I may stay well to romp and play and do your bidding, to walk by your side, and stand ready, willing and able to protect you with my life, should your life be in danger.
And my friend, when I am very old, and I no longer enjoy good health, hearing, and sight, do not make any heroic efforts to keep me going. I am not having any fun. Please see to it that my life is taken gently. I shall leave this earth knowing with the last breath I draw that my fate was always the safest in your hands.
~Author Unknown~

I just wanted to share this with al you pet lovers out there, and even those of you who don't love pets, because I truly believe that you need to read this to. I see to many animals in practice who are mistreated, neglected, scared, and abandoned. It hurts, so I ask you to read this, and take it to heart. I don't honestly know how I would be getting through life if I didn't have my dog right now. She is very special to me, and she always listens. There is a reason that God created dogs, and I believe that they deserve to be treated well and loved. Thats all for now.....

I'm back.....

Hello faithful readers, I apologize for my lack in blogging, but life has been quite stressful lately. For those of you who didn't know, my Nana passed away on August 14th at around 10pm. I am very saddened by her leaving, but I am also relieved, for I know that I now have another Guardian Angel. As much as it hurts that she is gone, I know that she is no longer suffering or in pain, and that seems to numb the hurt a little bit. As for what to do now, I'm not so sure. I suppose that I will get on with life, eventually. I'm back to work, but every day is different. Some days are a lot more difficult than others, and it's on those difficult days that I really wish I was back home. I do have a great support team up here, and I really appreciate all that they are doing for me, but they can't be here all hours of the day (even though they have offered) and sometimes it's the being alone that is getting to me. I suppose I should go to bed though, I seem to be tired all the time, and I'm really not sleeping well, but any sleep I can get I suppose would be a bonus. Goodnight fellow bloggers, faithful readers, I promise to try to update more often.