A long long time ago....

Ok what seems like forever ago I updated this blog. I'm almost fairly certain that no one reads it any more though, probably because I'm so awful at keeping up with it. I am procrastinating at the moment though, so this seemed like a fitting thing to do, lol. Since I last blogged a lot has happened. School is going well, I took six straight weeks of physics, which I'm pretty sure is what hell is like, and I passed so I'm happy. I am still plugging away at my pre-vet req's trying to decide what will happen in the next year or so. There has been a lot of discouragement on the part of my acedemic advisors so I'm kinda pissed off at the university of saskatchewan right now. But never the less, I intend to apply and get in and become a kick-butt veterinarian! In august Mom had a hip replacement that was laced with complications, but she is doing much better now and the healing is progressing along very nicely. I have been working experience US for the last couple days running high school kids all over campus while still keeping up with my classes, and let me tell you that involved a lot of running from one end of campus to the other, lol, my legs hurt a tremendous amount but I'm sure that the cardio was good for me :) I have just been employed at Woodridge Vet Clinic. Yay me!!! It's just a casual position right now which is super because I don't need a lot of hours. Just enough to keep me in the game. I really do miss working in a clinic setting so hopefully this will help me get my drive back. It's not like I want to be anything else, but right now I just find it hard to focus on what my ultimate goals are. Wow this is kinda a randomly quick update. I just thought it was funny last time I was writing I had midterms and this time I am writing I also have midterms. Hopefully I will update again before my next set of midterms, but for now I think that I should go study! Hopefully there is still some random people out there that read this crazy thing! If there is great, if not, then I guess it's just a random waste of time :) I actually quite like random wastes of time, lol!

SO PROUD TO BE CANADIAN!

Wow after the game last night, how can you not be proud to be a Canadian? All of our olympic athletes represented us well at the olympics and the fact that we brought home the most gold medals speaks very well for the competetors! So proud of all of them.
So a lot has happened since I last blogged. I have made a new friend. I can talk to her about anything, and she really doesn't mind if I cry on her shoulder, infact she tries to comfort me which makes me laugh. She's definantly on the heavy side, so standing next to her makes me feel skinny. Now before you think that I am a horrible friend for saying that let me tell you that she really doesn't mind. She doesn't have a name though, just a number, 703. Incase you haven't figured it out yet I'm not talking about a person. I'm talking about a holestein cow!! I have started milking in the dairy barn at the university and although it gets me up early and keeps me up late, I love it. At first there were a lot of challanges as the cows seemed to know that I was new and that they could push me around, until they figured out that I can be just as bossy as everyone else, then they co-operated and life has been smooth going. Let me tell you more about my new friend. She is an absolute sweetheart! She put her head over the gate and licked my shirt, so I turned around and scratched her head and neck for her. After that it became a mutual grooming, lol, I would scratch her neck and around behind her ears and she would lick my arms and my shirt. Have you ever felt a cows tongue? They are scratchy like a cat tongue, but much much larger, lol. When I was having a bad day, I talked to her, and it was almost like she understood. She nudged me when I was really upset and licked my hand and just made me feel better. It's almost like she was smiling at me. I know you all probably think I'm nuts, but I'm not.
Hmmmm what else has happened. Lots of stuff, lots of emotionally draining stuff and I have now ceased to sleep more than a few hours a night, which is really wearing on my nerves, and my health, I'm hoping that something will break that cycle soon and I can get a half decent sleep. If not I'm afraid I might have to visit a doc to get something, even just for one night. I hate taking pills though, so I guess we will see!!!!!!!!
School is going well. I'm writing midterms right now, so life is very busy, but then again when is it not? I'm fairly certain that I rocked my bio exam today, so I'm hoping that I'm write, I should find out next week hopefully. Until then I will just focus on studying for the rest of them and hope for the best, lol.
Anyways, I know that this has been a really quick update, but I'm gonna go, grab a cup of tea, do my devotions and attempt (hopefully successfully) to get some sleep!!! G'night blogging world! Take care! Hope to be blogging again soon!

Woo Hoo Long weekend!

Even though it's a long weekend, it doesn't technically feel like one, but it will after Sunday, which I realize sounds backwards, but I have next week off of school and I intend to take a few days to relax, after this crazy weekend is over! I start milking at the barn this weekend, 5am Sunday morning! Yay me!!! Insanity I believe is the word for it, but I am excited never the less!!! Lambing went really well so now it's time to start a new adventure I suppose. It should be a good one. I guess I will decide after I've done it. Anyways super short post, but I'm not feeling to great tonight, so I think I'm gonna hit the hay early! Later blogger world, HAPPY FAMILY DAY WEEKEND!!!

Ch-ch-ch-changes

So today was an interesting day....not that anything spectacular happend but I have been praying about a job change. Not that pet smart isn't an acceptable place to work, I just really feel that they don't appreciate me, or that my skills are being used to their fullest potential. On my way home I saw a sign for a vet clinic that is opening seriously across the street!!! SO CLOSE!!!! It's not like directly across from the apartment, but it is diagonally across, and definantly within walking distance, even in minus 50 weather that seems to be popular in this city, lol. Anyways, I'm trying to not get super excited about it as of yet, because I don't know if it will work out or not, but I am going to continue to pray about it, and I will contact them to find out if they would considering hiring a part time tech or not. It would be so nice to be back in a clinic though, keep my skills up to date, so I don't forget everything by the time that I get into vet school!!! In all honesty I miss working at a clinic and I really need to get back into one just to remind me why I am going back to school. I love watching people interact with their animals, and I miss that when I'm not at the clinic! Not that you can't watch people with their animals when your not in a clinic, but people look at you weird if you stare at them while they are walking down the road, lol. Oh well! More details to come as I find them out and as decisions are made!!!! Until that time, please pray for clarity and that my decision making abilities are not clouded by my wants! I can't believe that is it february already! This semester is going to fly by and that scares me!!! So much to do and so little time to do it in!!!! Oh well, such is life! I know that it will all get done so I don't know why I worry about it, lol. Anyways, speaking of getting things done, I have homework (surprise surprise) so I should go and get that done! G'night blogging world!

Way too long!

Well hello again blogger world! It has been way too long, like seriously a year without posting? Why oh why have I gone that long? I blame facebook, just for someone to blame lol. I know there are no excuses, except the business of life, but I was looking through my old posts and found the one I had written about being busy, and I'm thankful that I have been busy, but I believe that I need to start getting back into the bloggin world. I really miss my friends, and I find that it is insanely hard to keep everyone up to date on everything that is going on. I also believe that I have a lot to say and no one to say it to, lol. I suppose though that we will have to wait and see what happens over the course of this year. If I don't blog more than this once then you will know that there is no point in coming back and reading this because I won't keep up with it, but if I post enough to make it worth your while to keep coming back and checking in with me, I would love to have you!!!! Wow where to start? This past year has been insane. I'm living in the city now, back to classes full time and while it is not all wonderful, I wouldn't trade it for anything right now. I'm going to skip over a lot of stuff or else I would be writing FOREVER! God has really been working on me this past year. Even more so in the last couple months, but it's a never ending process and I couldn't be more thankful that I serve a wonderful loveing God who will not give up on me NO MATTER WHAT! I was away to a leader retreat this past weekend and it was really a great weekend! A lot of tears were shed and a lot of heart issues were laid on the table. I came home from the weekend refreshed and renewed and ready to face the world again. Sometimes it's not so easy but I know that God is there to take me through. We were talking about identity this weekend. Who am I? Who am I beyond the masks that I put on to keep people from knowing whats going on? Who am I beyond the walls that I put up to keep people out? Who am I beyond the basic *acts* of religion? All of it boils down to one key point, no matter who I am to anyone in this world, I AM A CHILD OF GOD! and HE loves ME for who I am and for who HE has made me to be. The talents that He has given to me, the gifts, abilities and absolute blessings are all because He loves me unconditionally!!!!! It's an amazing feeling to know that no matter how much I screw up HE WILL STILL LOVE ME!!!!!! I learned a lot this weekend! I was also reminded once again that God can take away what he gives us in a heart beat and our identity needs to be in HIM not in who the world, or even ourselves expects us to be!!!! I think we need to be reminded of that sometimes. Also that no matter what the world thinks of us God thinks the world of us!!! Does that make sense? Read it again!!!!! God loves us ssssssssssssssssssssssssssssooooooooooooooooooo much and our humanity stands in the way when we mess up and try to hide instead of seeking forgiveness. Our mistakes are forgiven before we even make them, all we have to do is go to God and tell Him we are sorry.

"And you, my child, will be called a prophet of the Most High; for you will go on before the Lord to prepare the way for Him, to give his people the knowledge of salvation through the forgiveness of their sins, because of the tender mercy of our God, by which the rising sun will come to us from heaven" Luke 1:76-78

Hold on so tightly to that truth. God loves you!!!!!! and he loves me!!!!!!! and that is ssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo exciting!!!!!!!

Well blogger world, I have a biology assignment to do, so I shall go and do that. I will attempt to post again soon. Keep checking in! Love you! And goodnight!!

Woah there cowboy!

Have you ever gotten the feeling that life is just moving way to fast for you? I've been that way in this past little while, it just seems that no matter what I do I can't keep up with myself. I know it sounds a little crazy and possibly it is but I just feel like I can't get caught up. Take for instance the ever growing mountain of laundry I have to do before friday so that I can pack and be ready to leave right after work on saturday, it just seems that when I get it all done I have another load to put in. It's always just one more load, I never imagined that my *free time* would be consumed with laundry. Sigh, possibly it's because it just gets away from me. I don't have a tonne of spare time as it is and I'm afraid that it's not going to get any better once I start regular classes. I think that I might be able to keep up a little better from the simple fact that even though I will technically be working harder, I will be doing a lot of work from home, which means that while I am doing homework I can throw in a load of laundry, or if I need a break (which I can most certainly say that I will) I can do my dishes. Who needs sleep anyways? lol, highly overrated. It's not just my chores that have been getting to me though. It's been a little bit of everything from potential relationship problems (if you need more details you will have to e-mail me because there are some people who do not need to know what I mean by that statement and others that may already know, or those who think they might know but just aren't sure, anyways not important) to work, even to spiritual stuff. I just feel like my life has been really full in the last couple weeks but not really fulfilling. Does that make sense? Are we called to be senseless drones that just go through life never really living? NO I DON'T THINK SO!!!!! NICE TRY THOUGH!!!!! Just because I am busy doesn't mean that I get to stop living. I still need to make time for God, and make time for me, in amidst the other thing of life. Have you found yourself at a standstill in your relationship with your heavenly father? Possibly it's because you are not making time for him and the mountains of things that you just expect him to deal with keep building up. Let me ask you this question.... if you had a friend who constantly expected you to do things for them but was never really grateful for it, or never really spent any time with you other then to make sure that you are meeting their needs, would you keep doing things for that friend? Probably not, so why then do we expect God to? I mean not all of us, and not all of the time, but most of us at some point of time don't' give God the recognition that he deserves. When was the last time you thanked God for the sun in the sky? I know for me it's been a while. I think at some point of time or another, we all take God's awesome creation for granted. We need to slow down, step back from the business of life and breathe. Inhale the presence of God, let him walk with you, and ask him what you can do for him for a change instead of always expecting. It's not bad to ask for things that you need, but possibly we need to take time to do for God instead of always just taking. I know the *sermon* is kinda random, but it's been on my heart, so think about it, ponder it, pray about it, talk it over with the big guy. Just don't ignore it, and tomorrow when you get up thank God for another load of laundry, it means that you have clothes to wear, and in that fact you are better off then some people are. Think about it. Luv y'all. Have a great night/day/weekend if I don't post again before then!!!!

AAAAHHHH I"m being eaten alive!!!!

Ok, so it's really not that bad, but the mosquito's are totally not even phased by my citronella candle that is sitting beside me and it is a million degrees hotter in the house then it is outside, so I decided to chance west nile and avoid heat stroke. I am officially taking some holidays (much needed I might add as I am almost certain that if I had to stay with that noisy bird for one day longer we would have had malakin stew. Not too sure how that would have tasted but I'm really glad that we don't need to find out. I am in kindersley at the moment. Got my loan papers signed and finalized and all of the finances in place for school in the fall so I am heading into the city to pick up some books on Wednesday then I"m not sure how I will spend the rest of my holidays. Probably back here, in kindersley, being bored, or catching up with my friends, I'm not too sure,. I guess we will just have to wait and see what happens. I'm not going to exhaust myself though, that is the main thing. I am on holidays for a reason, cause after I get back I only have two weeks of work then I am in Saskatoon at school for two weeks then back to Swift to start my regular fall session. It will be an interesting change in my life. Now instead of being up early to go to work, I will have to be up and fully alert early enough to learn, *groan*. I think that it will be ok though, actually I know that it will be ok, because if it wasn't going to be ok then God would have put a stop to it long before I started, starting with acceptance and finances and all that fun stuff. I know that this is the direction that I am supposed to be going, because everything has fallen into place, it's been great. Now as long as it keeps falling into place I will be one happy camper!!!
Have you ever sat back and just thought about how awesome your creator really is? I have been doing that a lot lately, with farm sitting, then tonight sitting out here, nothing really distracting me, watching the sun set, enjoying the cool breeze, and just thinking. There have been a lot of thunderstorm's lately and everytime there is one, I am reminded of how great and powerful God really is, and I'm not sure that I could even do it justice to explain it, it just makes me feel so small, but knowing that the Lord of all creation loves me and cares for me even if I was the only person alive, makes me feel so significant, so even in the feeling of smallness, I still feel uber important. It's a good feeling. I'm going to go and enjoy the awesomeness of it all, you should to!! Goodnight blogging world!!