Not so sure.....

Hey all! I know it's been a while since my last update on here, but life has been a little hectic. My Nana was really really sick, but she is getting a lot stronger now. They say she might even get out of the hospital, thats exciting. Work has been crazy this past week, Rodney went on holidays and there was an anthrax outbreak at Chaplin. People have been calling in freaking out because the vaccine is backordered. It'll be nice when Rodney gets back and they can be grouchy with him instead of me. This last little while has been tough. I'm getting kinda lonley here, besides when I'm at work, the only people I talk to are the people at church on Sunday morning, and to tell you the truth, that just isn't enough. I mean my dog is awesome, she really is, but she's not much in the communication skills, she's great for a cuddle and a nudge, but she doesn't have words that I can understand. I'd really like to get into a house so that she can roam free in the backyard and be outside for as long as she wants, and I could sit out in the yard and play my guitar, and then if I met some people, I could have them over for a game of cards or something. I'm not asking for a big house, anything will do, but I just want something with a yard, and a place where people aren't partying all the time. Seriously, for only have *quiet tennents* my apartment is sure loud.... Anyways, I suppose that I shall go and continue being a loner, it sucks, but whatever happens happens I suppose..... catch ya later!

Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game

Have you ever seen the movie A Cinderella Story? It's a good movie, and it you haven't seen it I reccomend watching it (it's one of those don't have to put a lot of thought into it but every once in a while it tugs at your heart movies) Anyways, this post isn't about the movie, it's actually about the quote (that I've heard a million times before but really needed to hear again) Lately, things have been a little stressful lately. A few nights ago, I had a horrible nightmare and it seemed so real that I haven't been sleeping the best anyways and then the other night I found out that Nana is in the hospital......I really want to get home to see her, and it sucks that I can't but I know that God has a reason why I am still up there. Even though I am scared that something is going to happen, I have to realize that God is in control of the situation, and I have to let him have it. I read a quote in my devotional the other day that said *Submission to God means taking our hands off of what belongs to him.* That quote has also been sticking in my head, and it's so true, because I can't change something that has already happened, that I don't have control over, only God can do that, but I do have the choice to give it over to him and not worry about it, and for those of you who know me, you know how tough that is going to be, seeing as I worry about most things..... anyways, I'm sorry for the sensless ramblings... take from them what you are supposed to and leave the rest for the next person, I know that it's early, but I'm off to bed, I don't need to make myself sick from no sleep, so I'm going to try my best to get a little bit. Talk to ya later!