A story about a train.....

Ok, before you seriously get into reading this entry, grab some tissues, cause chances are it's gonna make you cry, or tear up, just thought I'd prepare you. I didn't write the following story, actually I just came across it tonight while I was surfing the net and it hit me really hard, so I thought that I would put it on here. I'll explain why after you read the story.....
His Only Son
There was once a big turntable bridge which spanned a large river. During most of the day, the bridge sat with the length running up and down the river parallel with the banks allowing ships to pass freely on both sides of the bridge. But, at certain times of the day, a certain train would come along and the bridge would be turned sideways across the river allowing the train to cross. A switchman sat in a small shack on one side of the river where he operated the controls to turn the bridge and lock it into place when the train crossed. One evening when the switchman was waiting for the last train of the day to come, he looked off into the distance through the dimming twilight and caught sight of the train's light. He stepped to the controls and waited until the train was at a prescribed distance when he was to turn the bridge. He turned the bridge into position, but to his horror, he found that the locking control didn't work. If the bridge was not locked securely into position, it would wobble back and forth and the ends when the train came to it, causing the train to jump the track and go crashing into the river. This would be a passenger train with many people aboard. He left the shack with the bridge turned across the river and hurried to the other side of the river where there was a lever which he could use to operate the lock manually. He could hear the rumble of the train now and leaned back-ward to apply his weight to it, locking the bridge. Many lives depended upon this man's strength. Then, coming across the bridge from the other direction, he heard a sound that made his blood run cold. "Daddy, where are you?" His four-year-old son was crossing the bridge to look for him. His first instinct was to cry out to the child, "Run! Run!" But the train was too close. The tiny feet would never make it across the bridge in time. The man almost left the lever to run and snatch up his son and carry him to safety, but he realized he could not get back to the lever in time. Either the people on the train or his son must die. He took just a moment to make his decision. The train sped swiftly and safely on its way and no one on board was even aware of the tiny, broken body thrown mercilessly into the river by the rushing train. Nor were they aware of the pitiful figure of a sobbing man still clinging tightly to the locking lever long after the train had passed. They didn't see him walking home more slowly than he had ever walked to tell his wife how he had sacrificed their son. Now, if you can comprehend the emotions which went through this man's heart, you can begin to understand the feelings of our Heavenly Father when He sacrificed His Son to bridge the gap between us and eternal life. Can there be any wonder that He caused the earth to tremble and the skies to darken when His Son died? And how does it feel when we speed along life without giving a thought to what was done for us through Jesus Christ? When was the last time you thanked Him for the sacrifice of His Son?
Now the reason why that hit me so hard, is I was just thinking earlier today about how easy it is to forget the sacrafice that was given for us, so that we might live eternally. I realize how easy it is to become grumbly about the bad things and just brush off the good things. I think everyone is guilty of it. One example in my life right now would be my job hunt. I haven't found a job yet, and I'm starting to get a little anxious, but when I sit down and think about it, I really shouldn't grumble because I don't have a job, cause I finished school, I have time to find a job, it's not like my parents are kicking me out, although I'm sure that they will support me when I leave too..... I catch myself focusing more on the fact that I don't know where I will be in a month or too, when really I should be focusing on the fact that I have been blessed immensly and that I am a highly favored princess in the kingdom of God..... I think too much of the time I spend searching for answers instead of just sitting down and having a cup of tea with God....sitting in silence, basking in his love, listening to his voice......so you might wonder why I am telling you this, and the truth is I'm not really sure, but I believe that we all need to sit down and spend some time with our Heavenly Father, I mean come on now, life is hectic, crazy busy and we don't have a lot of *free time* but God doesn't mind. He doesn't mind if you talk to him while you are cleaning up at work, he doesn't mind if you take him to your coffee room for lunch, and he really doesn't mind hanging out with you on the drive to work. Just because there isn't physical time on our schedual of things to do, doesn't mean that there isn't time to spend with God. He doesn't mind being double booked and he would be more than happy to be at the soccer game with you....take him everywhere, show him off...... he deserves it..... he made a huge sacrifice for you, what are you willing to do for him?

Zzzzzz....

Hey all! I know that it's been a long time since I updated, but I've started my practicum now, and between that and trying to find a permanent job, I haven't had time to breathe let alone update my blog. I know that is now excuse, and I would have updated last night, but that would have meant that I couldn't go out for coffee with Norma, and I think that I needed that more than I needed to update. So I haven't really talked to many people from school since I left, I've talked to a couple of them, but once again, busy busy busy.... anyways, I just thought that I would enter a quick update. I'm having a breakdown, absolutly stressed out and not functioning, well actually, I was..... I'm doing a lot better now though..... I've just been really stressed about finding a job, and I guess I kinda forgot that God can totally handle it. Now that I have that thought back in my head, I am not freaking out as much. I'm still trying to figure out where I am going to be though, I'd kinda like to know so that I can start looking for a place to live. But once again, I'm not totally stressed cause I know that God will totally provide whatever I need (not necessarily what I want but definantly what I need). Speaking of needs...my body is telling me that I need sleep, and for once, my cell isnt ringing gently reminding me that I need to be somewhere.....So for now, I shall call it a night, I promise you another update as soon as I find out about jobs, if not sooner... Sweet dreams faithful readers!